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I took this photo some time ago, in January I think.  Just look at her. 

You can tell she is the youngest, because she’s still in her jammies.  And it’s past noon.  And her Mama figures we might as well be comfy if we don’t have anywhere to go. 

And there is no bow in her hair.  But that is not for lack of trying on my part.  Because you know, wearing jammies all day long is way more acceptable if your hair is coiffed with a bow.

And also, she’s wearing her snow boots.  With her jammies.  And sunglasses.  Upside down. 

She always wears her sunglasses upside down.  I never knew why.  Until one day I tried to fix them for her, and they fell right off her nose.  Her little nose is too small to hold them up unless they are upside down.

I sit here listening to her on the monitor.  Waking up.  Stretching.  Talking to her jellycat.  I wonder what she is telling him.  I can’t wait to hold her.  I can’t wait to smell her hair.   

Yesterday I wasn’t the best mother in the world.  Spent a lot of time cleaning and organizing. (Not that you can tell).  Did not spend enough time enjoying my baby girl. 

Today will be better.  

My house will be less picked up.

But my heart will be full. 

And she will know, today, how much I love her. 

Even if she throws her applesauce on the floor again.  Twice.